No weigh in today :(

Sorry I was gone for a couple of days and was not home this morning to weigh in.  I am planning on weighing in tomorrow after water aerobics.  Hopefully I will remember.  TOday I got my financial aid award letter.  That means I will officially start school to become a nurse on Aug 22.  I am beyond excited that this last piece of the puzzle has fallen into place.  It is just one more reason for me to work hard at losing weight!!  I am not 100% sure that I will post a loss this week but I am hoping to.  I had a great couple of days in South Dakota but am happy to be home and ready for water aerobics in the morning!!  My hubby will be home in about an hour and that makes for a great day in my world.  I have missed him and look forward to being able to spend some time with him.  I tried hard to eat well on the road but that definately is not an easy task.  Doughnuts are not diet friendly but sometimes you do what you gotta do.

Needing a kick in the A**!!!!!

I need a good kick in the ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I feel like I am failing the last few days.  I seem to be constantly hungry and only want sweets!  I am hoping it will go away now that I am finally finished taking the prednisone but I just don't know :(  I am still doing my water aerobics and trying to eat less but not doing so great with the last part.  I want to lose this weight but seems like I am making myself fail.  Honestly I am scared to be skinny.  I have never been thin in my life!!  Hello I came into this world 10 lbs.  I am scared of losing what I have and scared of what the future will hold.  And unfortunately with that comes me turning to my comfort item: FOOD!!!  If only someone could tell me what I could successfully replace food with.  Tonite watching extreme makeover the woman hit the nail on the head when she said alcoholics and drug addicts have it soo much easier than someone addicted to food.  An alcoholic doesn't NEED alcohol daily they can avoid it, A drug addict doesn't need the drugs daily they can avoid it. Both just want what they are addicted to but those of us addicted to food we can't avoid it.  It is necessary to eat food daily therefore we have to fight our addiction every minute of every day.  This is a fight and hopefully a fight I can win but it is not easy.  My mother in law recently told me this weight didn't all come on over night so it isn't gonna come off over night.  I need to be patient and just work at it.  One day at a time, one pound at a time to a new me!!  If anyone has any advice please I would love to hear it!!!

Great day for the most part!!!

Sorry I have been MIA lately been spending time outdoors with my kids!!  Today Sonya and Braedan came out and we let the boys play outside.  We had set up the little pool for them but they wanted no part of that!!  Us mommas we spent a wee bit too much time in the sun and I am now quite sunburnt and so is Sonya!!  Oh well it was worth it!!  I am so thankful she was able to come out so we could spend some time together!!  It had been ages.  Overall things have been going pretty good but I am sooo ready to be off of this stupid prednisone!!!  I hate all the side effects and all I want to do is eat even on my phentermine!!  I am trying to really watch what I eat.  To get thru this phase I have implemented a new rule:  If I want a snack I eat an apple and then if I still need something I will wait 20 minutes before eating it.  So far today I have eaten 4 apples but only 1 cupcake so I guess it is working but I still have a stupid craving that will not go away!!!  Monday can not come soon enough!!!  Unfortunately the hubby just called from work and our truck just got hammered with hail.  He is not happy and that means I will be calling insurance Monday morning.  Truck isn't even 6 months old!!   I haven't seen it yet but I really hope it isn't as bad as I am picturing!!  For tonite I am off to work on some receiving blankets I am making for a friend!!  Fun & relaxing plus my hands will be full so I can't eat anything!!!!

Not so bad!!!

Well this morning was weigh in and...... I LOST 4.6 LBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It's not a lot but considering the prednisone and other things going on I am pretty happy with that.  This makes for a total of 15 lbs lost since starting the phentermine and means I am only 5 lbs from my first goal of losing 20 lbs!!!  I am so excited to see the scale moving down every week!!  Since I am finally feeling better today is going to be a day of house cleaning and then I do believe we will be going for a walk to the park for a little outdoor time with the kids.  Hope everyone has a great day!!!

Prednisone sucks!!!!

Wow is all I can say about Prednisone!!!  It makes it really hard to sleep between the hot flashes, chills, and flushing episodes.  And on top of that none if it seems to be helping I feel no different than before I went in!!  I am trying to stay on track with the eating but that's not easy with these stupid meds either!!  I JUST WANT TO FEEL BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!  I want to be able to lose my weight and do all the goals I have set for myself!!!  I am going to attempt my water aerobics in the morning because I need to do it for me mentally if nothing else even if I don't get as good of a workout as I normally would.  Thursday's weigh in is fast approaching and I am afraid I have failed this week and that makes me very very sad :(  I am hoping by tomorrow at this time I will finally be seeing an improvement with all of this but at the same time not getting my hopes up!!  I know I am rambling tonite but I am frustrated and just want to go eat the cinnamon rolls that are in my kitchen and I am typing on here just to avoid doing that very thing!!  I can do this!! I have to do this!! 

Not gonna let this stop me!!!!

Well I found out what the crud is that has been making me feel like crap.  Laryngitis with upper respiratory inflammation :(  So now I am on prednisone for the next 7 days to take down the inflammation.  Who gets this crap in June??? It has me seriously frustrated.  Now I am worried about that number on the scale come Thursday morning.  The eating hasn't been an issue.  You seriously do not want to eat with this and I have been making myself do my water aerobics BUT I am worried about what the meds are gonna do to all of my efforts!!!  I guess I just concentrate on getting better and try to eat the best I can and hope it doesn't bite me in the ass come Thursday!!!  I just wanna feel better and not gain weight while I do it.  This is a bump in the road and I will not let it put me in the ditch!!!! 

Busy weekend

Yesterday was a very busy day with all of the activities of Wright days.  The kids and I walked down to the parade route and enjoyed the parade and then the fun on the go games.  We had fun and my little man was sooo tired by the time we walked home.  Good thing I had taken his stroller with us.  We had a lite lunch he took a nap and we headed down to play at the park. Then a lite supper with friends and letting the kids dance while we visited.  Today was awesome cuz all 3 kids slept till 9:30 which never happens at this house!  It was nice to sleep in but we are definately missing Greg today!  He is in SD and so we do not get to spend Father's day with him :(  Overall though I really do believe I did ok with the diet the last 2 days and I did get in the 2 short walks yesterday.  Tomorrow is water aerobics and I am really looking forward to it.  I am getting into a slump of not seeing a difference but I am working hard to fight thru it!  I really hope I do not sabotage myself for success at this weeks weigh in.  I am nervous about it so a few positive thoughts can't hurt if you can spare them.  Still not feeling the best but I am just trying to stay positive thru it all.  I need to find my motivation again if you find it please return it!!!

Not such a good day!!

Today started out ok, did water aerobics at 7 and came home and saw the hubby off to SD.  Starting feeling like crud though and throughout the day started feeling worse.  Not sure what this crud is I am battling but I think it will end up with another trip to the dr :( I hate the dr and if you know me you know I have to be pretty sick to go in.  My eating has not been great today.  I have not ate a lot but what I did eat was not very healthy.  I have drank way too much pop and not enough water today.  Hopefully tomorrow I will wake up and feel better and can do better with diet and exercise.  I will not give up no matter how crappy I feel!!!  I have a friends wedding coming soon and I will not be this size when she gets married!!!!  Also want a new pair of boots for school this fall but I have told myself I have to be under 300 to get them so I have to keep that scale going down!!! I can do this!!!

Drum Roll Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And the results are in!!!!  I weighed in this morning at 336.6 which means I am down 10.4 lbs since I started taking the Phentermine.  I am so excited to see the number going down!!!  Today has not been a great day as I can not seem to kick this strep but it too shall pass.  I am still going to my water aerobics class tomorrow and hoping for numbers just as good next week.  I have not been very active today so I hope tomorrow is a better day! 

Tomorrow is the big day!!!

Today started out way early with water aerobics at 7 a.m.  It was awesome and a great bunch of ladies!!  I really think I am gonna enjoy the class other than the time of day!!  I am not a morning person but I will survive for 3 days a week!  Tomorrow is my first weigh in since starting Phentermine.  I am hoping to have at least lost something but not gonna get my hopes up too high!!  I am not feeling good this evening and hoping it will not affect weigh in tomorrow!!  Please keep your fingers crossed for some type of a loss tomorrow.  Oh and I almost forgot I found out today that I will be receiving student loans  so I will be starting Nursing school this fall!!  I am excited!!

Biggest challenge of the day

Today I had a super productive day.  I cleaned house, did laundry rearranged my little boys room and made a homemade rhubarb crisp all before 5:00 p.m.  After supper tonite I identified one of my biggest downfalls of weightloss.  I hate to waste food!!! At supper my daughter was full with have of a fajita left and guess who without thinking just started to eat it.  Was I hungry?  Nope just didn't want to waste it.  Then my little boy wanted an apple for a snack he ate about 1/2 of it and was done.  He then handed it to me (he's 2) and I almost ate it!  I did stop myself this time but wow I wonder how often I have been doing this.  I also wonder why do I do this and the only answer I can come up with is because growing up we didn't have food to waste.  We didn't have much money growing up so we wasted nothing no matter what!  I must make myself pay attention to my body and when it is telling me it is hungry!!  So starting today I am going to ask myself if I am really hungry before I eat something and if the kids don't eat something I am giving myself permission to throw it away instead of eat it.  Tomorrow morning bright & early I start water aerobics and then off to a chiropractor appt.  I have had to fight hard not to weigh myself till Thursday but I am very anxious to see if I am actually losing any weight!!! 

My Journey is Just beginning

I have started this blog as a way to help me stay on track during my weight loss. I currently weigh 343 lbs. I gave myself a goal weight of 225 lbs which means I have to lose basically a whole person to get there. It won't be easy but I believe it can be done. I have 3 kids and a husband to keep up with and am starting Nursing school this fall. I will do this I have to do this for my me and my family!! I starting taking Phentermine to help me lose the weight and already have seen a difference. I no longer want to eat all day and I no longer crave pop. I used to drink pop all day long but now can't even get a 20 oz pop drank in a day!! To me this is a huge step in the right direction. Also have cut my portions in half at mealtimes. My first weigh in will be Thursday June 16, 2011. I am very nervous for this date but I hope I will see a loss. Wednesday I start water aerobics 3x a week. Wish me luck since I have not had success in dieting ever in my life!!!